Dissociation | Poems About Sexual Abuse | Self-contempt | Sexual Abuse

Shame

The Poem Shame, defeat, hopelessness… +++the shrouds of death upon my soul, +++the bars of my prisoned life. There’s no escape and no way out. Life slowly drains from out my heart. They whisper terrifying messages +++on the breeze. “You’re hopeless!  You’re caught forever!” “There’s no use to try or even to live.” “You failed […]

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Letters to Me

Dear Ellen, Hello, it’s me, the little girl, talking to you. You are a big girl now, all grown up, but just for a little, I want to tell you what it was like for me. Back there, back then, I was so scared. I was afraid of what my brothers were doing to me. […]

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Hypervigilance

I walked into the Five Guys restaurant. Briefly, I surveyed the restaurant. They weren’t busy; most of the tables were empty. I approached the counter and gave my order. After filling my drink, I scanned the mostly empty room. Without conscious thought, I picked my table and slid into the chair while I waited for […]

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