Blog Posts | Depression | Poems on General Topics

God Walks the Darkness

It’s dark tonight, +++so dark. It seems that God +++is silent. I cannot hear Him. I cannot sense +++His tender touch. He seems to have gone, +++and left a vacuum. But I believe, somehow, +++He left To walk the darkness. The blackness, +++that’s real; It’s too real. During the day, +++I can refuse to think. […]

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Blog Posts | Dysfunctional Families | Sexual Abuse

Finding My Voice Part 3

To Live in Silence After the sexual abuse ended, and especially once I was of age, I was no longer physically trapped. However, abusers psychologically trap and silence their victims long after the actual, physical entrapment is over. I was no different. After twelve years of sexual abuse, I believed the lies that I was […]

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Blog Posts | Sexual Abuse

Finding My Voice Part 2

The Silence of Sexual Abuse In Part 1 of this series, I say that my stuttering started at age eleven, or thereabouts. I also mention that I believe my stuttering is tied to my sexual abuse. Before beginning this article, I want to make very clear that stuttering is usually NOT a sign of abuse. […]

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Blog Posts | Sexual Abuse

Finding My Voice Part 1

The Handicap of Stuttering I was eleven when my school teacher asked my mom, “What is wrong with Ellen? The other day she started stuttering out of the blue, just like that.” That was exactly how it was. One day I was talking freely, smoothly, and normally. The next day, I could hardly give answers […]

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Blog Posts | Sexuality

What If Someone I Love Is Gay?

You may remember my recent series entitled “What If I’m Gay?” chronicling my struggle with homosexuality. Since then, I’ve reviewed those posts and thought about what was or would have been most helpful to me during that time in my life. In light of that, this post will discuss caring for a friend or family […]

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